about my self

assalmualaikum w.b.t :)

when i typing this post , hujan renyai-renyai , di temani bantal-bantal kesayanganku .. hp di tepi laptob.. walaupun snyap memanjang . haha .. ALHAMDULILLAH , i'm happy with my life.. with my family , friend , and org2 sekeliling ..

memang kita hidup banyak dugaan and cabaran .. but , kita msti trima dan hadapi dgn sabarr . in my life , mmg bnyak dugaan .. when my age 5 years , my mother and my father divorced .. hmm..my mother menyara my sister and i for 6 years .. i live without my father until i was 11 years old .. when i'm in primary 5 , my mother get married for second time.. start that day , i have new father .. Alhamdulillah , i can accept him as my father .. my biological father ? i don't know where he are .. in the same year , after my mothe get married , he come to my kampung .. he  want to visit me and my sister .. but , i'm try to avoid myself from him .. i don't know why ..  when he come to my home , i go to my BFF 's house .. i go anywhere , asalkan i x terjumpa dia .. pernah sekali , he enter my room . he want to talk with me.. i feel like .. argghhh ! i'm crying that time.. he says ' kenak molah bapak cam tok ? tulah kelak ' .. ok. may be , he miss me.. i'm his OLDER daughter .. his FIRST child .. my younger sister takut kat dia . when our parent divorced , she not born yett  .. i'm pity for her . when she born , she did not know who is her father ..  he get new father when he was 6 years old ..  she look happy .. alhamdulillah .. on 2007 , i have new sister .. new born , NUR QISTINA NABILA .. even she is my stepsister , both of us love her like our own sister . we have same mom , just different father :) .. now , i was 18 y.o , my sister was 13 y.o and my youngest sister was 5 years old ..  we

were happy togetherr .. my mom always give advice to me . she says ' DO NOT HATE YOUR FATHER , HE STILL YOUR FATHER . HE WILL BE YOUR WALI WHEN YOU GET MARRIED ' hmmmm .. i know , i need to find him if i want to get married . he is my WALI .. i feel want to cry , when my frien talk about their father ..especially when  FATHER's DAY .. i just in the silent mode.. just hear their story.. last year , on december , my biological father call me . he ask about my SPM ... 

when i hold the phone .. he says ' tauk ka sapa tok? ' i'm silent . then he say ' bapak tokk ' .. baru saya dgar suara dia selepas 6 tahun berlalu .. sebak ada , sedih .. he have his own family now .. with his new wife .. 

when my mother has divorced with him , he will be ' EX HUSBAND ' of my mother , but not ' EX FATHER ' for my siter and i . he will be my FATHER FOREVER . the ONLY ONE .. ALHAMDULILLAH , penceraian my parent TIDAK MEMBUAT SAYA MEMBERONTAK & MENJADI LIAR . saya bersyukur sangat - sangat :) ..

                                                                                                                                                                   

with my sisters :D

every i sit for exam , my father will call to know my result . when i'm in primary 6 , he call to ask about my UPSR .. i got 2A 3B .but , my aunty speak to him . i'm not at home that time .. he also ask for my PMR result .. 4A 4B .. i'm not answer his call also .. i don't know where i was at the time .. last year , he ask about SPM .. syukur , dia x lupa pada kami .. i love himm .. 


* when i write this post , i can't control . i was crying .. :'(